metrocake

So, uh, hi! As you can see, I obviously made it through my site launch — so I thought I’d say “hello.” Seeing as how this is my blog and all, and I needed to do something to get those “Gates” pictures off the front page where they’ve been for over a month. :)

I know I don’t write all that often here anymore, and there are lots of reasons for that…

Some of it’s because I’m pretty busy, and that’s good. When I moved here over a year ago (!) I didn’t really bring much furniture. For the first six months, I was basically taking care of business — getting things like a couch and bed, learning my neighborhood, and so on. Nowadays, I’m still pretty dang busy — more socially, though. There’s just so much to do here, and I want to do it.

In the midst of the busy, I’ll observe something or something will happen to me that I want to share — but then, “oh, SHINY THING!” and I forget. :) Writing, “Hey, here’s that semi-funny thing I heard on the subway last Tuesday” just isn’t as good. The “so much to do here” from above can also be pretty bloody distracting when it comes to writing things down.

Lack of creativity isn’t helping, either. Ever since I left Michael, I’ve been in a bit of a creative rut — I haven’t been inspired to do much, either writing or imagery. Most of that, I’m thinking, is because I’m more focused on being out and social right now than anything else. Lots of stimuli with very little time to absorb it all. Some of my creativity loss is also due to depression — I fought with that for quite a while after I left Michael. I think I’ve got it mostly tamed now, although it still crops up now and again.

And, last but certainly not least — the separation itself isn’t fun. Or funny. It’s certainly the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do in my life, and has required a lot of adjustment. When I left Michael, I not only left my husband, but I also lost my best friend through my actions. It hasn’t been an easy time. And what the past year-ish has been like is something that I’m just not comfortable putting out there for everyone to see. It’s also not fair to Michael. So, expect small bulletins from the front — but not long, personal entries. Not about this.

I plan to get better with the short entries, though — eventually get a new cell phone, do some moblogging from there. Or at least write shit down before it leaves my head, sheesh. :)

Expect more. It’ll be here soon.