metrocake

Not having an easy time with things, lately. I’m sick of being in constant pain. I’m also terrified of ending up like my mother, who at 59 has had two hip replacements, one of her knees replaced twice, and needs her second knee done.

On the bright side, I saw a new orthopedist yesterday, who examined me far more thoroughly than my other one, the one who I’ve been seeing since December, has ever done. I’m now being treated for not only my foot and Achilles tendinitis, but also for poor ankle strength and tendinitis of the lower kneecap. Essentially, my left leg is all messed up…but now something is being done about it. So things can only get better from here, right? Right?

My weight isn’t helping…I’m not 300 pounds, but I’m not a size 3, either, the way I was in college. (Granted, that wasn’t very healthy, either…) It’s been a vicious cycle for me that I need to break. I sprained my ankle, so I didn’t do as much…so I gained more weight…so my tendons got stretched and strained and hurt…so I didn’t do as much…so I gained even more weight…and so on, and so on. :P My doc yesterday told me what I can do, at the gym, to help with that while not aggravating my damaged bits. :) So let’s see how I do.

I also got a cortisone shot in my heel yesterday that should help get things relaxed — not cramped and tight. I have to tell you, that was possibly the most painful and excruciating procedure I’ve ever had done on me without the use of anesthetics. It was a 3-inch (maybe 4) needle…into my foot…and it huuuuurt. I almost passed out. My stomach was lurching, too. I really, really hope I don’t ever need one of those again.

Sorry this isn’t a more sparkly entry…maybe things will be better tomorrow. I’m trying to do things that will make me better, but right now, I’m pretty down. :(